The Bus Stop Blues

There’s a train that if you miss, it won’t slow down

If someone doesn’t want you there than don’t stick around

Different fish in the sea

If there’s one for you than there’s one for me

One can only fight for so long

Regardless right is right and wrong is wrong

With a broken heart you breathe like you would with a broken rib

I’m not a captain so I will abandon ship

Like a mustard seed

Love still grows inside of me

There’s beauty to be found in all the colors in the world

On the axis of my imagination I sit and twirl

I painted a picture that only I could see

I lost my faith but I still believe

In the sky

I will always dream that’s no surprise

I watch the clouds form

As new hope is born

It’s not a matter of holding on but letting go

No matter the distance down below

Because this life doesn’t wait for anyone

Even when dreams come undone

Now my heart will continue to fight my brain

But I still got to get back on this train

So nice to see you tonight

Let’s discard the words because I refuse to fight

You didn’t know what you were looking for

You just knew you wanted more

I want to see you in the morning when I wake

So tired of playing it safe

Bury your fears in my arms of hope

Remember to breathe and try not to choke

Part of you is fighting this

And part of you is fighting for one more kiss

Hold me when you can

Love me to the point that I can’t understand

Everything I want, everything I need

As I let my pride bleed

So let me see you again tonight

Let’s get this straight my friend before we lose sight

I send all my love to only you

But what am I but only a ruse

I grow tired tonight

Questioning everything that isn’t right

Which one is the bad guy

Which one is feeding lies

Who is the victim

She or him

It was never a choice

It was just doubt in her voice

So you wonder why I still love her tonight

Because tomorrow she just might…

Banished to my dreams
To carry out unfinished things
I hold onto the moment I fell and became completely vulnerable
In you I look for those feelings trying see if they are recoverable
Unable to reach you with words and only lost more with the silence I go back to the start
To find that innocence we once shared and try to reinstate it back into our hearts
But I lack the discipline to be a better man
And you lack the motivation to understand
We both focus so hard on what we want that we are blind to see just what we really have
And in the mean time we had to watch a good thing turn bad
But when the subject is love it is never too late
And who are we to argue with fate
I know you never asked for any of this
But I will never regret that first kiss
You will always be the one even long after the sun goes down on us
I just wish our love was enough
So in my dreams I linger again
As I wait for you to rejoin me my friend

From the prison of my solitude
I sit and I write
Night after night
I envision things just out of my reach
Come daylight the beauty I see
The woman I bestow upon my speech
But from her voice her choice is not me
I look upon the pieces of my heart scattered across the ground
Trampling on my pride looking for a heart to understand but one cannot be found
I gather up the remaining pieces
Looking for the words but I become speechless
In her eyes I can see the pain
But my hurt I cannot refrain
My words come out wrong and tasting bitter
My actions she didnot deserve
How can I live without her
The only one to ever build me up
The only one to love me enough
The one person to give me purpose
Is the one I did not encourage
I failed in so many ways
So now how do I explain
There isn’t anything in this world that you could not do
Except to see this love through

You cut me down with your words
What makes it worse is that you’re my girl
So before I sleep I smoke one last cigarette
As your voice echoes in my head, I just want to forget

You do not know what it’s like to walk in my shoes
No more than I know what it’s like for you to have to choose

I confess my heart to you
Searching for the perfect line
You have it all yet I’m the one with everything to lose
You are my everything, everything but mine

Girl trying to figure you out is an impossible task

So I’ll toast to you until this whisky last

And if the dreams that we once shared become only mine

I’ll still hold onto them till the end of time

And if you tell me that it’s not me you want I won’t try to change your mind

I’m just stuck in time loving you

Trying my best to stay true

And if I had it all to do back over again

I wouldn’t change a damn thing my friend

Because loving you is what I was made to do

You might be calling it quits but we aint through

It’s a Chesney song and a promise I’ll hold onto

So go ahead and say your goodbyes it’s not like it’s the first time

I’ll hold my tears as I gently lose my mind

Because it’s all been said and done before

So I’ll just hold out for something more

For tonight you’re sleeping next to him

I’ll fix a cocktail and wallow in my sin

Tomorrow you might be back again

And tomorrow I just might lose my best friend

So I’ll set these dreams on fire to try and warm this broken heart

How can you give up and just let things fall apart

How can you look into my eyes and say I’m not the one

As I look into your green eyes I watch your perfect world come undone

I represent the unknown and I know you’re afraid to face your critics

And if I did something wrong please give me the chance to fix it

Our story can’t end like this

We weren’t made for a last kiss

So I’ll just sit here and close my eyes

As I hold onto this broken lullaby

She was a little girl

That was never promised the world

Never reached for the stars

But still in life she got pretty far

She thought she was living the dream

And he definitely wasn’t what she wanted but in reality

It was a gap tooth, tattooed man

That grabbed her heart and took her hand

And offered to take her to paradise

But it was a choice and she could not decide

You can read the story written in her eyes

All she wanted was her man by her side

In such a time of joy she was finding confusion

As he’s demanding a conclusion

She is overwhelmed by unnecessary pressure

Making her feel the need to push away from this treasure

She knows that they can have it all

She just doesn’t want to be at fault

So he does his best to make her laugh

Followed by a conversation and a promise that he’ll wait as long as the love last

They both heard it all in a song before

As she waiting for the day that she finally can give him more

I have a lot weighing on my mind
A lot I want to say
But as we lose ground to time
Things get pushed to another day
It’s a slow death to die
And it’s contagious
Starting to shake, I cry
These choices are outrageous
I will share everything
And take only enough to breathe
I’ll give you my heart in the form of a ring
I’ll give you the best of me
But instead tonight I sleep alone
So bitter and cold
Lying here staring at my phone
I wish my innocence could be so bold
As the light inside of you lights up the hall
Walking towards me
Taking it off and giving me your all
But it’s just another dream
And it’s just another night
My mind grows weary but my heart never loses sight

The echoes of our silence is ringing so loud in my head

The distance in our love is keeping me awake in this bed

The pain in your eyes is a pain I wish I didn’t see

I just wish my love was enough for you to leave

What words could I say, I mean hell I’ve even used this line before

But damn it girl can’t you see we were meant for so much more

How do you fight something that is so strong

Make up to break up should become our theme song

Because all we do is go back and forth and it will always play out this way

Until you make the decision to finally stay

How much longer can we go without saying one word

How much longer do think it will take until you realize that you are my girl

The hidden messages and reading in between the lines

We should just come out and say it before we both completely lose our minds

We didn’t choose to fall in love, we were just meant to

Always here, always, well you know the rest…I love you

I remember when you were first born I was afraid to hold you

Now I’m afraid to let you go

Like your eyes of green that were once blue

Everything I knew I realize now that I didn’t even know

It’s a mountain of regret of all the time I took for granted

I was a boy you turned into a man

It’s how you took my heart and transplant it

Sometimes the best things in life are unplanned 

In my head like inception

In my face, conception

Have me doubting my reflection

Holding onto my imperfections

Together, perfection

Thought we were the exception

But instead misconception

Left desiring your affection

Can’t hide from fates projection

Sadden by our disconnection

Praying for a resurrection

Just worried about my hearts protection

As I’m dying by your rejection

How come you cannot accept this connection

Can’t believe I fell for your deception

Now I’m lost looking for direction

You made your selection

But your love is now like an infection

For there is no correction

To your defection

I still cry objection

I will never have complete acceptation

Or will I ever kick this addiction